Surgery tomorrow...

Well, the surgery is tomorrow.  I can't decide if I'm grateful because they will take the cancer out or mad because they are going to cut me up.  I'm scared...I really don't know what to expect.  I don't want the pain or the recovery.  I feel like part of me is going to be taken from me.   We will leave for Salt Lake this afternoon.  Ahhhhhh, please Lord, give me strength.  I know I have to do this but I need strength.  I need to be here for my family.